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Name: kErRiNa
Location: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Birthday: 12/10/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: sWiMmiNg, rEaDinG fiCti0NaL b00kS, coMiX-n-mAgZ, wRiTinG p0EmS, LiStEniNg t0 mY fAv. soNgS, g0iNg t0 bEacHeS, sh0PpiNg, dRaWinG, y0Ga, j0gGing
Expertise: aNn0Y!nG mY m0M & fRieNdS, bReAkiNg guYs' hEaRts ^_<
Occupation: Student
Industry: Other
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MSN: pinkchocolatepunkster@hotmail.com
Member Since:
7/20/2005
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| 0nE 0f mY fRieNdS sAiD tHaT i'M qUiTe dRaMatiC. . . . I think that
sometimes I’m like a teenage drama
queen. I don’t quite
get myself at times. I’m so very contradictory....
I’m always doing things that meant
the other way. I don’t know
why.... But I still
like to do it.... It’s like a part
of my habit.
And, today we
had the time trial for the swimming
competition that is to
be held on this Saturday. I haven’t been swimming for a month.... and my
skills are like way way
terrible. The fact is
that I got last for every event. I
feel like a loser. The
volunteers who were keeping track of the time said so loudly
after I came up from the swimming pool.
“Wah! Sure lose one this team.” I don’t mind
getting slam in the face like that. Okay! They sure was very straight forward. But, damn! I seriously feel like a jerk.
The one thing I hate
the most is people looking down at me.
I’m trying my
best at everything I do, most of all my studies. But, I can’t
seem to do any better in my studies. I
don’t even have the confidence that I can enter Monash. I can’t seem to handle little stuff.... things that
are so fregging minor I can’t even do. I’m
so fucking irresponsible at times. I
really hate myself! Why can’t I seem
to do things correctly and properly? Sometimes,
I just feel like kicking the shit out of myself or banging my head against the
wall. Whenever I’m angry or sad or
dejected, I just cut myself. I seemed to
enjoy it.... because I won’t feel the pain inside. I’m more focus on the
physical pain.
I feel so
unwanted and rejected in this world. Sometimes,
I wish that I could just disappear from this world..... so that I don’t have to
hurt or trouble myself or anyone.
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g0t mYsELf aN
eMbeDdEd sTAr! * tWiNkLE tWinkLe
LitTLe sTaR * mUAhaHa! *cHeEcKs*
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| Tomorrow is Malaysia’s Independence Day!  
I love Malaysia.  Though it’s kinda boring,  It’s full of nice, friendly people of all races and the food is yummy!!!!  
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| Haven’t been updating my blog for quite some time. Told you I’m not really a keen blogger.
By the way, came across a question on someone’s blogsite . . . . Why do we have to study? Study so much also have to die. Die with or without knowledge is also the same. So, why do we have to study so hard? This question kinda triggered my mind. . . . It set me to think why do we really need to study? Ok, mainly people will tell you that you have to study hard to get a good job in the future so that you can secure your life. What if we die after studying so hard and before getting a job? What if we also can’t get a good job after studying so hard? Don’t you think it true? It doesn’t promise you that when you study hard, you will get a good job. Graduating from university with a Masters doesn’t actually secure you a wonderful job. Just look at how many students who have graduated from universities with Masters/Hons. . . . Many of them can’t get a job because their qualifications are too high. So, studying so hard is all fregging bullshit.
I hate studying. . . . I hate schooling. . . . But, I have no choice, but to carry on with it. In school, they only teach us about general knowledge. It’s fregging boring. Most of the knowledge that you gain has no use after you work. The type of knowledge that I wanna gain is not being taught in school. Most of what we learn are basic knowledge that we can also learn it from our parents.
Well, most of you might think differently, but to me, I still don’t get what’s the point of studying so hard. Studying stuffs that are so basic. Can’t they make studying more interesting? Some people can get a job even after graduating from college/ high school. Isn’t it a bit unfair to those who graduated from universities? You might think that you’re so fregging grand and smart when you graduated from universities, but, think again! If you’re wondering why you can’t get a job, while those who are not so smart can get a job, think again! They have potentials or abilities that you can’t even qualified with. So what if you get good grades but you’re a fregging snob? In this world, you gotta be humble. Being a snob or think-you’re-Mr/ Miss-hey-look-at-me-I’m-smarter-than-you- will not get you anywhere. | | |
| Don’t understand why people like to find problem with me! It’s so fucking irritating. Don’t they have better things to do than to pester me? If you don’t have anything else better to do, go fuck someone or go knock your head on the fregging wall. Just don’t pester me!
What’s wrong with these people? I hate to be cold and mean, but sometimes people are just so ignorant and idiots!
By the way, I learnt the word ‘FUCK’ when I was in Standard 4 – 10 years old. My cousin taught me! I don’t find it kewl to say this fregging word, ok? But when I say it, I’m really pissed off! Some people really fregging deserved this word!
Last but not least, I’m the last person you ever wanna mess with! Treat me nice, and I will treat you nice. Backstab me, and I will Kick the shit out of you! Break my heart, and I will break your bones.
Try asking my close friends or my sis what I’m like when I’m fregging pissed off. They will definitely warn you to steer clear! Provoke me, and I’m all claws!
I like people to be frank! So, if you got a fregging problem with me, say it to my face! Shout it, Slam it, or whatever. As long as it is heard! Get it?!
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